Fairness is OVERRATED

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It was a shitty Friday.

Although I saw this coming years ago, it still feels like shit when my analysis turns out right and prediction comes true.

To be precise, I felt indignant and frustrated when I saw the events unfolding before my eyes.

This colleague, who will behave accordingly to who you are, not what is the issue at hand (i.e if you are a boss, she will treat you with utmost patience and respect. If you are not, she will be nasty, irritable and rude. Even though when both parties are talking about the same exact thing).

She will praise the bosses to the skies and yet speak ill of them in the same breath, behind their backs. She will openly mock at us when we volunteered to do the hard work. However, bosses only have eyes for her since she will make them laugh, joke with them and make them feel good.

She does not have to lift a single finger to do much work and the bosses think poorly of us since, although we deliver the results, we did not make them feel good.

She is one smart, bloody bitch who knows what the bosses want. A bloody good ass kisser.

So, this very colleague whom I detest so much, has just been promoted to one of the bosses. To be one of their kind.

It is the same fucking shit in my relationship.

My spouse behaved accordingly to how he perceives and values me; he was the least devoted to me (he admitted that he was the least "into" me, as compared to his other girlfriends). He treated her, Velda his mistress, and promiscuous ex-girlfriends with utmost care, respect, patience and love while I was just a "roommate". He was an irritable, nasty and childish spouse who does not hesitate to throw his tantrums regularly at me, complains about me, but still is singing praises of his exes to his friends and family.

He praised his Exes to the skies and yet spoke how much he suffered as a result of their cheating in the same breath. Although he was constantly worried over how Velda and his Exes perceived him (yes his image matters a great deal), he didn't care how I poorly I perceived him and even frequently mocked at my repeated attempts and efforts to work on our deteriorating marriage.

He only has eyes for Velda and Exes (since they are overtly sexual creatures who sleep around with multiple guys - a trait which he finds totally madly irresistible). She and promiscuous Exes did not have to lift any finger to do much work in their "relationships" with him; as he was the only one doing the dirty work of keeping their "whatever-he-called-it-relationships alive". He thought very little of me (even though he admitted that I was the best wife any guy would love to have; someone who had graciously put up with all his bloody bullshit). And said that my only flaw was that he was just simply not "into" me.

Never mind the sacrifices I made for him, never mind the late nights I pulled for him, never mind that I was working my ass off because he was always not around. Velda (hey you hear that?! no wonder married guys are all in the hurry to dump all their no good wives for you) is his ONLY type of IDEAL "wife", someone exciting, mysterious, exhilarating (since she is cheating on her married-soon-to-be-divorced BF Fiori with him).

She was his dream (sic) nightmare come true. Literally.

She and Exes are smart bloody sluts and bitches that knows what men want. And they provide bloody good fuck as well.

Sounds familiar?

The only thing that is consistent in this world is unfair. Fairness only exist in fairy land..

Fairness is the big lie that we tell our little ones, our kids so that we hope that they don't grow up to be misfits or become crazy psychopaths...since this world is so bloody-fucked up.